Some scribbles!!!

I cant believe it has been few months i wrote my last blog...wowwww....sigh! That means - i have not connected to myself for these few months. What kept me so busy was usual work chores, the amazing Vihaan's tantrums,school routines and of course some friends and acquaintances who fill your life with surprises & shock Well well well, now back to the blog - i wanted to scribble my thoughts and here i am back - off late , many things have been bothering me .The fact that i realized even your best friend cannot help you when you feel alone and unhappy . There are certain things that only you can help yourself .And that it is better to find happiness from within than to keep seeking it outside of you even when it is very normal that your happiness is completely dependent on near & dear ones. But ultimately, it is you -your own self who makes the decision to feel happy ,keep peace with one self irrespective of what others in your life are doing. This is a harsh reality that i experienced in my recent past life. Anyways, am glad to have understood this better this time and hence i am sure i am not going to let myself get hurt badly ever again. The big question for me always on my mind was how can we think of helping another when you are not in peace with yourself. So here i am working on it -As definitely i want to be there to realize my dream of doing something to the underprivileged but for that i need to be at peace understanding my own life and keeping myself calmer & happier Here is to a relaxed and happy year end .Looking forward to a great 2013 2012 has been unforgettable in many ways -good & bad things have happened but am sure the bad taught me some good lessons So, gearing up for a beautiful brand new yearrr

I LOVE MY INDIA

Am sooooooooo glad that i am gonna celebrate my 100th blog on Independence day and here i am -writing all about my lovable country . INDIA - The vey fact that i was born in this country makes me love it to bits and reading the indian history at school makes you more proud . When i was a teenager i did get angry everytime i read about all the atrocities in the pre independence era. How much our ancestors must have gone through for me to sit and write here and for you to read it out there!!! Imagine - would this have been possible 66 years back? My most memorable patriotic moments as far as i can remember is when i hear or sing the National Anthem .Every time i sing it ,i get goose bumps and sometimes i end up crying too!!! There are times in school when even friends have made fun of me when i keep standing for the Jana Gana Mana song rehearsals during my band days . They used to ask me -we are gonna practise 50 times -are you gonna stand up every time??? That was my passion and respect for the anthem during school days . However i regret that i also succumbed to the pressure as i became an adult and regrette now standing up when it was played in k3g Movie as the entire theatre crowd only kept sitting down and the folks i watched it with also kept saying it is not necessary as it is only part of the movie What a shame ? i am sure that was the last time -i thought of what others thought and did what they wanted than what i wanted to do!! The next patriotic experience i remember was after the movie roja -my neighbours were commenting how stupid od Arvind sawmy that he almost sacrificed his life to save the flag . I was a teenager then but still got shocked when the young lady told me she would have poured water and stamped out the fire and i angrily replied " You are saying this because you are an anglo indian -but we indians would do anything to save the nation's pride !!!" Wow- how vividly i remember all this!!! India - I love everything about you !!! so many beautiful states, languages , different cultures and that is what makes you so diverse. But one thing is everyone uses this diversity to create divide between people and my only wish is that everyone really try to live the Unity in Diversity that we claim to be proud of and We Indians are sure to race ahead of other super powersss! Wishing for a violence free, Poverty free , Corruption free and more tolerant Indians Jai Hind !!

5 years of Blogging !!!

Exactly 5 years back, same day i started to blog! Infact , it's such a co-incidence that i was browsing through my old posts and saw the 1st blog was written on 14th August 2007. For 5 years , i have n't still touched a 100 posts. But i am very glad that somehow i managed to keep my passion for writing alive through this blogspot. A big thanks to Nita ma'm for encouraging me to think of writing where ever possible and for introducing me to blogs . It was one dramatic day where we had to record her voice over in a studio at alwarpet and i had to accompany her being in marketing and it was my responsibility to get that video out! She picked me up and as we were reaching the studio -the worst thing that can happen on a important day happened -my footwear sandals gave away and with embarrassment i walked into the studio without slippers and focused on the recording .After it was done, i quietly told Nita ma'm - i dont have slippers to wear back to office and if she can help go fetch slippers from my home in adyar and drop me back to work .In this long drive from and to alwarpet and adyar - our conversations on Journalism and how i always wanted to be one etc came up .She being the awesome writer that she is , she spoke to me at length and enlightened me with the various opportunities that exists to live my passion and start writing!!! And there i began the journey . I started writing with MSN and i cant explain how i felt when they published my first article!!! Awesomeness - i tell you !!! From there on, i decided why wait for MSN to publish my free thoughts and that is how My World was bornnnnnnnnn...

There is something about "Amma Veedu"

I cant believe that its been 2 month since i actually wrote a blog . I must have at least tried logging in twice to write something and i don't know how it never happened Was i that busy with my work ? Grrrr...Am glad now i got this short break to relax a bit and rejuvenate my blog I was really thinking how come am at so much in peace with myself when i reach my mom's place. Its like the feeling of coming back to my single days or rather being at a place when i am completely ME! Though many would not agree that marriage changes you a lot, it does! At least in turning yourself into something that you were never before -Yup-marriage does that .Its not something bad but it's a biggg change .I guess that is why every girl longs to go her Mother's place -To just be herself , Put her feet up and feel like the free young girl she was sometime ago! To get pampered and feel totally irresponsible as Amma is there to do everythingggg... Even this room , computer and this blog - i could never find time to write most of my blogs from my home ... as far as i can remember i blog mostly when i come to amma's. I feel at peace within me and i just start writing. I dont have to stop to think about the husband or the guest or the door bell or the so many interventions that happens in a married woman's life . Being at amma's place and writing for me is - like doing something that i love from a place that is so MEEEEEEE... Hope i get to write more & more as i keep coming here :-)

My mobile's lost & found experience

Luckily , so far i have not lost a mobile phone!! But i almost had the experience of loosing my phone few days back . We were watching the hilarious OK OK movie in Satyam and i realized my mobile had just fallen down . We tried calling and with the lights flashing under the chair , found it and felt great about realizing it slipped out of my jean so quickly . But i guess my mobile's fate for that day was to get lost that night!!! As it was a night show , we were already yawning while leaving . Only after the car reached my home , i asked my husband about if he had my mobile and yeahhhhhhh-as expected he did not have it as i remembered giving him the phone after i found it under my chair the first time i lost it . The time was 2.00AM -imagine our plight... even thinking of going back all the way to sathyam was so tiring !!! But he did that as i was sitting in my room imagining that now my phone has gone missing - How am i gonna build up the contact list again ?? What about all the personal photos & messages ...oh god-some stranger is going to read them ... My mind went on ..only relief was to think for a day - i can be free as i will be non contactable !!! But the cons were more than the pros !! I slept off loading my brains with these thoughts only to wake up next morning pleasantly surprised to have my phone next to me as alwayssssssssssss!!! Hubby dear managed to get hold off the phone -exactly the same way as we did the first time !! it was under the same seat at E row in Stahyam!! Lucky ME ! And my luckyyy Phoneeeeeeeeeeee :-)

Dreams Come True!

Believe me - Dreams come true !!!! And this was a dream for me.. i wondered if i will ever get to do it some day . And i did it at a time when i least expected it !! After a baby , enrolling myself for a management program which demanded a lot of time and energy when i was left with none after running behind a fast growing toddler. Now to think of this one whole year of studying time , i feel like i made up for whatever i missed early in life.

But this craving for studying from a great institute happened because of a heart breaking interview. I remember attending to an interview at KPMG and the interviewer told me i was perfect for the profile except for the educational background. She was not okay that i did a business degree through correspondence. Though i did not bother too much about the comments ,her opinion somehow deterred my confidence a little bit.

From then i had a wish rather a dream to do a study program from a great institute.I thought dreams will only be dreams, but believe me -Hold on to your dreams and you will someday see them come TRUE !!!!

Here i am at the Graduation ceremony receiving my POST GRADUATION certificate from XLRI institute :-)

I wish i was a Buddhaaaaaaaaaa

Today should have been a normal usual bright day . But how it gets changed to a bad day because of silly behaviors from certain people. And if i look back for the reasons on such incidents , reasons & cause for anger are so frivolous

I don't know what pleasure some men get by shouting at top of their voice, showing red faces .Are men supposed to show woman that they are MEN by behaving like that?

However, the learning for me is that i am attaching so much of emotional values to people and relationships. Someone else in the same situation would have reacted so carelessly ignoring silly or rude behaviors. But i take it seriously and also allow people to hurt me . I am remembering what a friend told me once about Buddha & his disciple . Buddha & his disciple Ananda were on their rounds for getting alms and one person questioned them if they weren't ashamed to beg like that . On hearing that Buddha smiled and continued walking away . Ananda asked Buddha how he is able to smile it away but he felt so hurt in contrary . Buddha told Ananda by handing over his kamandala "Take this " and he took it . When Ananda gave it back to him , he did not take it . Buddha explained "you have accepted what he told Ananda and i did not"

I wish i were a Buddha so that i do not accept the hurtful words from outside of me!!! but guess am remaining a ANANDAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!

Our visit to the "Bombay Circus"

We thought about going to the bombay circus on sunday ..it was 7.30pm and hence it was too late and then i sighed " i wish i thought about it earlier" . Though monday is the start of a hectic week and a rare day to think of an evening outing , We decided that let's try the bombay circus on Monday evening as else we would have kept postponing the circus experience.

Vihaan looked very keenly at every performance. He cheered when the elephant played cricket and very cutely kept saying " bye bye elephant " when she swayed herself backstage.Many artists kept you glued to watching their acts. Somehow , i didn't like the way we indians behave as audience. Hardly any cheers when people out there were sweating out and putting up their best shows with enthusiasm . And i fail to understand the concept of our "Firungi Fascination" . As all the white skinned russian babes got more cheers than our very own Sheela from Tamil Nadu . Wonder Why?

All the cribs apart , Vihaan's smiles and Whoos made the experience a lovely one . The constant mosquito bites did not deter him from watching the show with joy!
He kept saying Bow Bow when the dogs came in to perform . It was awesome to see the birds do the cycling .And of course the various artists had many different programs to entertain us . Overall , My first experience (am not able to recollect the ones i went as a kiddo) and Vihaan's was an enjoyable one . He kept saying he went to Circus until yesterday !!!!

"Three cheers to Bombay Circus" which i think is so underrated in this new age of cinema & Reality shows. It is on till 11th March 2012 and runs 3 shows at 1pm, 4 pm & 7pm everyday !!! Don't miss it ,Go for ittttttttttt!!!!

Vihaan's Dance Show

14th December 2011 -AMM School Auditorium

Kids Central Term End Show -Toddler Kutties

We got it all ready ..his dress code right -Plain White T shirt and Denim blue shorts.

And we prayed everything goes smooth in leaving home as being at his school by 08.30 than the usual 10.30am is far earlier if not for vihaan for his office going amma & appa. We rushed and got into the car at 08.30 ( the time we were supposed to be at the Auditorium).The only moment in my life where i blamed myself for being late ( as the mom in me did not want to let down vihaan)

Guess am forgetting this was toddler group and it is pretty normal to be late given the kind of tantrums kids this age make. I realised this after reaching there as i had good company for being late .Many moms were rushing like me .

I ran fast to back stage and Vihaan's favourite Kirthika Aunty grabbed him to get him dressed .

The most happiest and Proud Sujay & Viji waited to see their only Son take center stage at Toddlers performance .He was adorned with the adorable Penguin. And there he went ...doing his trademark dance "tummy bummy shake" for the music . Aptly for the Gummy bear song his hands went up his head ( This he was showing us even before the performance day) And he timed the salute very well and i could see him trying to watch his teacher's movements and he tried copying some of them very cutely . A taller boy blocked vihaan's sight and that did not deter him as we could still see his hands and legs move to the dance tunes. Penguin song came and Vihaan looked little lazy to bend down for a step and he did a short cut bending step . As everyone did the finale and clapped , we could see after all the claps ended -vihaan started clapping too and with all the aunties saying 1,2,3,4,5 & Bye -Vihaan happily waved bye bye and went backstage without waiting for the rest of his team to go in the way they had planned it

This is probably his symbolic way of expressing himself - " Phew....Finally ,we are done with this dance show and i am happy to run home!!"

Whatever it was ...."You were awesome my ROCKSTARRRRRRRRRRR"

It's 2012, 2012 & 2012!!!

As i write my first blog for this brand new year 2012, am wishing for me and everyone more good things and happy moments this year than the last one. Though we say , happiness is what we make out of a situation , sometimes we are forced to believe in what has to happen will happen kind of sayings . I remember blogging beginning of 2011 a small wish list kind of a thing . Just looked up to see how many actually happened in my life .Some events are yet to come but 2011 gave me many special moment as a mother. Watching my little baby stepping into school , listening to his mazhalai sweet rhymes , Seeing his dance movements and feeling so proud to hear about every milestone achievement at school makes this year that went by a memorable one for me.

On the career front , it was the worst year for me as i always get stuck exactly before a great opportunity. But there is no looking back as am sure if i would have taken up those big challenges -i would have missed out on giving quality time to many mommy moments that i had to spend at vihaan's school. Hoping at the end of this year i would say 2012 was a better year for me at work ..

My last year ended with replacing our dear Ford Ikon with a brand new ETIOS! And i am hoping he will stick with us for another 5 years. And what else ??? Yes... i was not making enough time for myself, my husband & friends in the last year and my focus was completely on my Vihaan and my XLRI PG course. Now that am done with the course and i have got decent scores in all the papers, am gonna make up for it and spend extra time for all that i missed out in the last year ...But even that made 2011 a memorable one as i always had a regret on missing out on college life and a proper education in life ..Now that big wish fulfilled :-)

Wishing and will work towards a Happy Year ahead !!!!!