TUTLI BECOMES VIHAAN SUJAY

After how long am here ..gosh i felt like as if i did not have a life of my own once the brat came out...

I can make a movie or write a story book to encourage all women who go thru a delayed
delivery in the sense ..TUTLI arrived very very late ..that too without giving his mom any sign of labour pains ..oops...i was admitted to get induced :-( IT WAS A PAINFUL DAY but it was all worth it ...as the saying goes -no pain ,no gain -so true!

I was getting anxious ..it was almost a week beyond the due date but what you hear from most of the women are that they had their baby before their due date ..this always kept me in worrysome state ...finally after a days admission that nite ..i got my labour pain , honestly wished i had a boy as i cant see my gal go thru this in later stage ..
and it was a BOY....Pappa dear was hoping it was TASHA SUJAY , but it was VIHAAN SUJAY!

The doc, nurse everyone at First med hospital was too good ...i cant imagine bringing him out if not for them -THEY WERE ALL AMAZING ..and my doc -she is a true GODDESS !
Though our hospital stay was scary as swine flu scare occupied every story and talks - i enjoyed every moment of those initial days watching the cutie pie...how tiny his fingers were...how small he was ...so cute and sweet ...my heart ached when they told me he had jaundiced and it literally broke when i saw him under the photo therapy lights with his eyes tied..Hats off to moms who have special children ..what they must be going thru ..gosh u need all the courage in the world to raise a baby and watch him hurt himself and grow -hope i get some soon as i am still the scary ,over protective mom (well..cant expect a 2 month mom to be a THAGDA)

TUTLI has filled our lives with joy and he has made me fall in love all over again with my Sujay after seeing the doting appa in him....did not expect in the wildest of my dreams that sujay is gonna be such a doting dad...amazing ..am enjoying every bit of his action when we are around with TUTLI...

Vihaan is adorable and now he needs me ..so i will continue my romance with the key board later .....!!!

Best days of my life !!!

Emmm..you got it ...it's also a line from the cult song "summer of 69" and i feel like singing now and all the time ..These are the best days of my lifeeeee...yeah yeah!!

It's been wonderful to take time off from work ..Finally ...after so many years of working ..am gonna have a good break .Well , even if this break is gonna actually keep me on my toes with my baby arriving anytime..its gonna be fun ...(hopefully !!)

Started my leave yesterday ...and its been total masti from then ...
Sweetu hubby managed to get me all the dvds that i craved to watch ..and now
already am done with Salaam Namaste ,Just my luck ...Have spidy ,finding nemo and lion king to go ..by the time i finish that list , my list of next 10 romantic comedies would be ready ...yippie yeah !!! To top it all ,grabbed his mp3 too ...so
some unlimited music -all favourite ,chosen ones that i would die to listen to ..who else can it be but for Mohd Rafi ka songs and some chosen latest hindi n tamil songs.



Can't ask for more to relax and get tutli to have some good time along with me
before we get to see each other ...

while am happy with all this ...somewhere inside me , the woman waiting to deliver is paranoid ..she is scared , anxious and what not ....mixed up emotions :-O

Hope all the nice movies and soothing music would help me get away with the highs and lows and make me totally happy :-))

Countdown beginsssssssssssss....few more days and TUTLI is gonna keep me so busy that i would return to blogging i guess after .....keep guessing :-)

Revolution in Filmi Music -Thaamarai & Harris

Emmm ..This one movie has been very close to my heart ..This movie's music rocked !!!
i was madly in love with the song " Nenjukkul peithidum poo mazhai "
Guess that audio CD would have played in our car a 100 times by now and i would not
be surprised if i can put TUTLI to sleep with this song :-)) he he he as then when i was listening to that song repeatedly ..i did not know i had conceived only ...
I had even watched the movie on a special screening with tutli inside me ..HE/SHE must have been a single cell then :-)) say 1 or 2 weeks old ...ha ha ha ..i cant imagine !!

Back to the topic ..This movie's music moved me ..it was for so many reasons ..to make it sound more apt let me use this borrowed title that my friend uses.. "KAARANAM AAYIRAM" for liking "VAARANAM AAYIRAM" ..I wonder how lyricist Thamarai can bring out the emotions and feeling that a man goes through..trust me ..i feel like a man yearning in his shoes listening to lyrics of some of her songs...specifically ...Nenjukkul, and that beautiful song , Manjal veiyil from vettaiyaadu vilayaadu ...gosh...i can keep the list going ! Am so glad she is writing songs and Harris Jayaraj's Music just compliments it :-))

Some lines from Manjal Veiyil -Manjal Veiyil Maaliayile ..Palichitum vilakkugal Pagal pol kaatuthe ....yaaro yaaro yaaro aval :-)) ...Now ..U got to listen to that song :-)) Picturisation is also toooooooooo gud...So now watch it and Enjoyyyyy !!!

TUTLI

Emmm ....Finally here i am writing a blog about who has taken control over my life these days .. "TUTLI"..

He/She has been my recent love ,interest ..everything i say !!

I cant believe that TUTLI has been inside me for so long now .. 30 weeks :-)
30 Weeks of putting up with me and baring with me ...wait baby doll..just another 10 weeks and you will be seeing so many people around you who are eager to see you esp the one who is responsible for you :-P

I cant believe TUTLI has been with me for so long ...more than 7 months??
Time flew away as i still feel like as if it was yesterday ..when i called him to
say we are gonna be parents ...i still feel like it was just few minutes back that i saw TUTLI's heart beat on that scan machine ..whoaa ...a beautiful journey in to this
initial days of motherhood and sometimes it scares me to even think that am gonna be responsible for someone else soon ...i wonder how am going to take care of TUTLI ...?
High time i grow up so that i realise am not the little one anymore :-P
someone else needs all the attention and pampering that i always crave for !!!

Pregnancy sure makes you feel special , at least the people around you ensure that you are made to feel special .. People surprise me with their behaviours ....and i realise ...i am not gonna be pregnant forever , so i better enjoy this attention and extra care that am eligible and deserve enjoying right now ...whether it be that nail polish this cute lil gal from my office got me because i said that pink color is nice or be it the coconut ball stuff dosai got me all the way from ooty ...I was emotional when he told me he extended the ride from kodai to ooty to get me this stuff ..
how can i forget both the ammas and my hubby !!! even if that goes without saying ..
they make me feel as if am the only pregnant woman on earth :-))

Well..i also realise that all this is not for moi ,but for TUTLI ....

By the way..TUTLI by now can hear stuff , so let me stop romancing with the keyboard and start talking to TUTLI ..

Miracles are born

How do i start this ...i feel so excited to even think about this new life growing in me .Amazed at the way mother nature has placed everything right for another life to grow in you ...I can't imagine how they breathe ,how they survive inside that dark womb...and how they feel and casually adapt when they are out in the big , bad world.

That's a miracle working for you ..inside you ...My baby :-)

The excitement in looking at my growing belly never stops ...as if the belly is growing everyday ..i stare at it so surprisingly .Am sure my husband is bored hearing this everyday " my belly has grown today ..rite?"

Tears fill your eyes when you see your little one on the scan ...

My baby's heart beats so fast and he/she is just not willing to show me his/her face..tiny little hands were hiding his/her face ... i could see the nose and chin ...kind of got a total picture of how my baby looks now ...All i had was tears in my eyes when the scan got done.

Now ..am waiting for the day i can hold you eagerly !!

Slumdog Millionaire -It's worth an OSCAR !

I felt like i was watching a great movie after a long time.A movie where every scene can move you , every dialogue can send across a positive message to your brain :-)
It was a fantastic movie..All credit goes to the director Danny Boyle and of course the three real life slum kids . They just take your breath away specifically "Jamal "
the kid who grows up to win the Millionaire show .

I got so angry with myself (and our society which i belong to ) that we are letting this happen to our country .Children being exploited because of lazy adults ....
My eyes and heart weeped watching the scene where one of kid's eyes are taken away so that he could be sent for begging ....(think about it...it happens in India ..even now someone is doing this for his survival ..and what are we doing about it?)
And if it's a girl child , her eyes are safe but her virginity and dignity is what she has to loose for a survival. The movie's background score was amazing and i am in love with "JAI HO" song .A R RAHMAN surely deserves an Oscar !!! !

And what i would say to the lot who are criticizing the movie would be "Go to hell"
They could not do anything to make people think about the future of India or make a life for children like these and what are you criticizing about ?? Efforts of someone who has taken the initiative to show the world what it is !!

Shobaa De knows only to boast about mumbai and bollywood , top of it Criticize good movies like this..Madame shobaa ..what did you do to ensure a better living condition for the slums in mumbai ..the same mumbai you are so proud of ??
Think about that first before you point fingers at others !!!

My favourite dialogue from Slumdog was when Jamal says "If not for Allah or Rama , i would still have my mother " ...It deserved a thundering applause though i was the only one silently clapping :-)

I would recommend everyone to watch this wonderful movie "Slumdog Millionaire"

Welcoming 2009 -Spiritually :-)

I welcomed 2009 but from home :-)
Every new year am outside home -at least for the past five years -it has been that way
I love loud music and enjoy dancing so that leaves me with no option but to get outside home to have some fun .But this year (wonder if marriage transformed my priorities)i was fast asleep when the whole world welcomed 2009 !!

But then it was nice being home for a change & watte day 1st Jan 2009 was ...
It was totally Spiritual :-)

Best part was amma coming to wake me up on the new year's day ...That did not look like i was married ..As how it happened for so many years ..there my amma was sitting in the hall waiting for me to see her ..Really sweet of her :-)

Morning -Visit to Ayyapan Pooja
Evening -Visit to Anantha padmanabhaswamy Temple
Late evening -My Usual New Year's Buddhist Prayer Meeting

All i did was pray ,pray & pray ..

Prayers for myself ,dear ones and of course WORLD PEACE

Marriage has surely transformed MOI :-P