Our visit to the "Bombay Circus"

We thought about going to the bombay circus on sunday ..it was 7.30pm and hence it was too late and then i sighed " i wish i thought about it earlier" . Though monday is the start of a hectic week and a rare day to think of an evening outing , We decided that let's try the bombay circus on Monday evening as else we would have kept postponing the circus experience.

Vihaan looked very keenly at every performance. He cheered when the elephant played cricket and very cutely kept saying " bye bye elephant " when she swayed herself backstage.Many artists kept you glued to watching their acts. Somehow , i didn't like the way we indians behave as audience. Hardly any cheers when people out there were sweating out and putting up their best shows with enthusiasm . And i fail to understand the concept of our "Firungi Fascination" . As all the white skinned russian babes got more cheers than our very own Sheela from Tamil Nadu . Wonder Why?

All the cribs apart , Vihaan's smiles and Whoos made the experience a lovely one . The constant mosquito bites did not deter him from watching the show with joy!
He kept saying Bow Bow when the dogs came in to perform . It was awesome to see the birds do the cycling .And of course the various artists had many different programs to entertain us . Overall , My first experience (am not able to recollect the ones i went as a kiddo) and Vihaan's was an enjoyable one . He kept saying he went to Circus until yesterday !!!!

"Three cheers to Bombay Circus" which i think is so underrated in this new age of cinema & Reality shows. It is on till 11th March 2012 and runs 3 shows at 1pm, 4 pm & 7pm everyday !!! Don't miss it ,Go for ittttttttttt!!!!

Vihaan's Dance Show

14th December 2011 -AMM School Auditorium

Kids Central Term End Show -Toddler Kutties

We got it all ready ..his dress code right -Plain White T shirt and Denim blue shorts.

And we prayed everything goes smooth in leaving home as being at his school by 08.30 than the usual 10.30am is far earlier if not for vihaan for his office going amma & appa. We rushed and got into the car at 08.30 ( the time we were supposed to be at the Auditorium).The only moment in my life where i blamed myself for being late ( as the mom in me did not want to let down vihaan)

Guess am forgetting this was toddler group and it is pretty normal to be late given the kind of tantrums kids this age make. I realised this after reaching there as i had good company for being late .Many moms were rushing like me .

I ran fast to back stage and Vihaan's favourite Kirthika Aunty grabbed him to get him dressed .

The most happiest and Proud Sujay & Viji waited to see their only Son take center stage at Toddlers performance .He was adorned with the adorable Penguin. And there he went ...doing his trademark dance "tummy bummy shake" for the music . Aptly for the Gummy bear song his hands went up his head ( This he was showing us even before the performance day) And he timed the salute very well and i could see him trying to watch his teacher's movements and he tried copying some of them very cutely . A taller boy blocked vihaan's sight and that did not deter him as we could still see his hands and legs move to the dance tunes. Penguin song came and Vihaan looked little lazy to bend down for a step and he did a short cut bending step . As everyone did the finale and clapped , we could see after all the claps ended -vihaan started clapping too and with all the aunties saying 1,2,3,4,5 & Bye -Vihaan happily waved bye bye and went backstage without waiting for the rest of his team to go in the way they had planned it

This is probably his symbolic way of expressing himself - " Phew....Finally ,we are done with this dance show and i am happy to run home!!"

Whatever it was ...."You were awesome my ROCKSTARRRRRRRRRRR"

It's 2012, 2012 & 2012!!!

As i write my first blog for this brand new year 2012, am wishing for me and everyone more good things and happy moments this year than the last one. Though we say , happiness is what we make out of a situation , sometimes we are forced to believe in what has to happen will happen kind of sayings . I remember blogging beginning of 2011 a small wish list kind of a thing . Just looked up to see how many actually happened in my life .Some events are yet to come but 2011 gave me many special moment as a mother. Watching my little baby stepping into school , listening to his mazhalai sweet rhymes , Seeing his dance movements and feeling so proud to hear about every milestone achievement at school makes this year that went by a memorable one for me.

On the career front , it was the worst year for me as i always get stuck exactly before a great opportunity. But there is no looking back as am sure if i would have taken up those big challenges -i would have missed out on giving quality time to many mommy moments that i had to spend at vihaan's school. Hoping at the end of this year i would say 2012 was a better year for me at work ..

My last year ended with replacing our dear Ford Ikon with a brand new ETIOS! And i am hoping he will stick with us for another 5 years. And what else ??? Yes... i was not making enough time for myself, my husband & friends in the last year and my focus was completely on my Vihaan and my XLRI PG course. Now that am done with the course and i have got decent scores in all the papers, am gonna make up for it and spend extra time for all that i missed out in the last year ...But even that made 2011 a memorable one as i always had a regret on missing out on college life and a proper education in life ..Now that big wish fulfilled :-)

Wishing and will work towards a Happy Year ahead !!!!!

My Prayers for you dear!

It was like any other busy day at work. One of the doctors walked in to to my room to discuss something and then i got to hear the not so good news. She was rushing to the hospital to save a baby inside a mother who had brain hemorrhage . Yes, the mother was dying. I was so curious to know what had happened to this peculiar delivery and when i happened to speak to the neonotalogist who attended to this delivery , she told she managed to save the baby boy but the mother is dying . I feel a deep pain inside me today ..imagine a boy being born without a mother ..imagine the child's future...A mom's love can be replaced with nothing / no one's love and hence this pain . I pray for this little boy who was born today to be blessed with all that he has missed today ..probably another mom in someone else. I wish someone would love him as much as his mom would have if she had stayed alive today ...Let this boy be blessed with all that he will need when he grows up ...my tears cant stop thinking of many who grow up without their mothers ...it is not easy ! I don't know why god plays such bad games with people's lives!! are you listening god? why why ? what did this little child do to be born this way ? Help me understand this pleaseeeeeeeee

The Mommy in me!

When you hear that your son has started getting physical with other kids - the mommy in you says what? oh..gawwdd... why is he being such a naughty brat ?? or rather you take it as ..it all happens in childhood . Now , am not very sure which of the two occurred to me as all i could think was , is he doing that really ? as he is usually the lovable darling boy who bears with all the beating and pushing that others kids do with him . I have always worried about how he is very timid and bears what other kids do to him when he was 2 years old. I remember how i felt so bad when my neighbour's kiddo pushed him away and Vihaan fell and kept going back to get friendly with the kid who was pushing him . Probably , now he has learnt to be like the OTHER KID ! well, it does bother you a little when teachers report about a certain not so appreciable behavior but they also added, it is not to the extent to hurting another child .It's just pushing away another kid to watch their reaction .Am wondering if he is thinking of this as a small game that he usually plays with his grandma at home .Kids are so good at imitating what they do or what others teach them . So let the mommy in me take it easy and wait to watch if this gets serious :-P

YOU VS ME !!!

Ever wondered who you are ? why you are this person ? Interacting with certain people who remind you of certain things ...or feel the Deja vu ... i think a lot about all this . who am i ? why am i feeling this way ..

I would suddenly feel so sad for the girl who is selling coloring books by the beach side in bare foot when at the same time many of her age kids are driving with parents happily in a BMW . Then another realization comes along that the BMW parents have worked hard to take care of the girl who is getting this ride ...so , why did nt this poor girl's parents think about her when a stranger like me is worried about her .
I kind of meet certain people who make me feel - what can i do to change this situation for them. In the sense, sometimes it is people who are less fortunate .And sometimes i tend to pick up arguments in a certain pattern... i tend to feel the same way about say a few people i interact with . I feel i give too much importance to how others feel about what i am saying or if they will take it well . And sometimes it is the exact opposite - i don't care how you feel , this is it -my opinion .Well , we never know what is actually right and what is wrong . Sometimes it is better to follow your heart than waiting for the logical answers from your head . It kind of works .. at least when it comes to the YOU VS ME ego clashes between close ones.

But what i have learnt is to stop giving importance to the other person when the ME gets taken for granted and gets hurt .End of the day what is the point in making someone else happy at the cost of your happiness., there is the thin line here... hurting someone to keep yourself happy or keeping yourself happy by hurting someone ..That is a Toughie -so figure out for yourself as to which one to choose :-P

Where am i in this rat race?

Before i knew it , Vihaan has grown up and i still can't believe he is two years old. I am wondering if i enjoyed every move of his? I did not miss to hear him utter his first word , the first time he called me " Amma" , the first time he danced etc

But suddenly , there is also this feeling that i get so caught up with the race that everyone is running today .Typical corporate rat race that keeps me glued to issues even when i am around vihaan . When i think about it , i feel it is not worth missing my child's cute little actions and thinking about the never ending work issues . When will i learn to stop running this race.. i don't know . Probably the fact that i already thought about the mad race will make me exit from it soon . Life is too beautiful to be wasted in sorrows, comparison , envy , hatred and of course stress. I wish we all can get into time machine and go back in the past where mobile phones & televisions did not exist so that we can spend more time with loved ones instead of getting glued to these electronic equipments. Though i hardly spend time in front of the idiot box , i think my time with my mobile phone is more than the time i spend with vihaan ....My mobile phone can be counted as an additional part of my human body ..it goes where ever i go ...and it never stops craving for my attention ... It is mostly work calling Viji even when at home . So here is to an attempt to exiting the mad race and to more peaceful moments with myself and my loved ones ...i know it is easier said than done , but let me at least try it :-)