TUTLI

Emmm ....Finally here i am writing a blog about who has taken control over my life these days .. "TUTLI"..

He/She has been my recent love ,interest ..everything i say !!

I cant believe that TUTLI has been inside me for so long now .. 30 weeks :-)
30 Weeks of putting up with me and baring with me ...wait baby doll..just another 10 weeks and you will be seeing so many people around you who are eager to see you esp the one who is responsible for you :-P

I cant believe TUTLI has been with me for so long ...more than 7 months??
Time flew away as i still feel like as if it was yesterday ..when i called him to
say we are gonna be parents ...i still feel like it was just few minutes back that i saw TUTLI's heart beat on that scan machine ..whoaa ...a beautiful journey in to this
initial days of motherhood and sometimes it scares me to even think that am gonna be responsible for someone else soon ...i wonder how am going to take care of TUTLI ...?
High time i grow up so that i realise am not the little one anymore :-P
someone else needs all the attention and pampering that i always crave for !!!

Pregnancy sure makes you feel special , at least the people around you ensure that you are made to feel special .. People surprise me with their behaviours ....and i realise ...i am not gonna be pregnant forever , so i better enjoy this attention and extra care that am eligible and deserve enjoying right now ...whether it be that nail polish this cute lil gal from my office got me because i said that pink color is nice or be it the coconut ball stuff dosai got me all the way from ooty ...I was emotional when he told me he extended the ride from kodai to ooty to get me this stuff ..
how can i forget both the ammas and my hubby !!! even if that goes without saying ..
they make me feel as if am the only pregnant woman on earth :-))

Well..i also realise that all this is not for moi ,but for TUTLI ....

By the way..TUTLI by now can hear stuff , so let me stop romancing with the keyboard and start talking to TUTLI ..

Miracles are born

How do i start this ...i feel so excited to even think about this new life growing in me .Amazed at the way mother nature has placed everything right for another life to grow in you ...I can't imagine how they breathe ,how they survive inside that dark womb...and how they feel and casually adapt when they are out in the big , bad world.

That's a miracle working for you ..inside you ...My baby :-)

The excitement in looking at my growing belly never stops ...as if the belly is growing everyday ..i stare at it so surprisingly .Am sure my husband is bored hearing this everyday " my belly has grown today ..rite?"

Tears fill your eyes when you see your little one on the scan ...

My baby's heart beats so fast and he/she is just not willing to show me his/her face..tiny little hands were hiding his/her face ... i could see the nose and chin ...kind of got a total picture of how my baby looks now ...All i had was tears in my eyes when the scan got done.

Now ..am waiting for the day i can hold you eagerly !!

Slumdog Millionaire -It's worth an OSCAR !

I felt like i was watching a great movie after a long time.A movie where every scene can move you , every dialogue can send across a positive message to your brain :-)
It was a fantastic movie..All credit goes to the director Danny Boyle and of course the three real life slum kids . They just take your breath away specifically "Jamal "
the kid who grows up to win the Millionaire show .

I got so angry with myself (and our society which i belong to ) that we are letting this happen to our country .Children being exploited because of lazy adults ....
My eyes and heart weeped watching the scene where one of kid's eyes are taken away so that he could be sent for begging ....(think about it...it happens in India ..even now someone is doing this for his survival ..and what are we doing about it?)
And if it's a girl child , her eyes are safe but her virginity and dignity is what she has to loose for a survival. The movie's background score was amazing and i am in love with "JAI HO" song .A R RAHMAN surely deserves an Oscar !!! !

And what i would say to the lot who are criticizing the movie would be "Go to hell"
They could not do anything to make people think about the future of India or make a life for children like these and what are you criticizing about ?? Efforts of someone who has taken the initiative to show the world what it is !!

Shobaa De knows only to boast about mumbai and bollywood , top of it Criticize good movies like this..Madame shobaa ..what did you do to ensure a better living condition for the slums in mumbai ..the same mumbai you are so proud of ??
Think about that first before you point fingers at others !!!

My favourite dialogue from Slumdog was when Jamal says "If not for Allah or Rama , i would still have my mother " ...It deserved a thundering applause though i was the only one silently clapping :-)

I would recommend everyone to watch this wonderful movie "Slumdog Millionaire"

Welcoming 2009 -Spiritually :-)

I welcomed 2009 but from home :-)
Every new year am outside home -at least for the past five years -it has been that way
I love loud music and enjoy dancing so that leaves me with no option but to get outside home to have some fun .But this year (wonder if marriage transformed my priorities)i was fast asleep when the whole world welcomed 2009 !!

But then it was nice being home for a change & watte day 1st Jan 2009 was ...
It was totally Spiritual :-)

Best part was amma coming to wake me up on the new year's day ...That did not look like i was married ..As how it happened for so many years ..there my amma was sitting in the hall waiting for me to see her ..Really sweet of her :-)

Morning -Visit to Ayyapan Pooja
Evening -Visit to Anantha padmanabhaswamy Temple
Late evening -My Usual New Year's Buddhist Prayer Meeting

All i did was pray ,pray & pray ..

Prayers for myself ,dear ones and of course WORLD PEACE

Marriage has surely transformed MOI :-P

A weekend with KK & Bombay :-)

I loved the weekend ...Especially the lazy sunday spent switching channels playing
my favourite movies ... "Kandkukondein Kandukondein " and "Bombay"

Atleast now TV channels are being sensitive enough to play the right kind of movies at a time like this .Movies which promotes peace & dialogue.Watchin Bombay gets me angry, so angry with people who have still not woken up to realise all this blood shed is cruelty and no one will win a war.Such a strong message from the movie and every scene during the mumbai riots makes you emote.some of the best scenes like
One of the twin asking a Unac if he is a hindu or a muslim and what it means by that ? The response is amazing -both are ways to reach god .From casting a muslim (Naser) as a Hindu extremist and a Hindu (Kittu) as a Staunch Muslim itself, Mani Rathnam has brought in national integration - i would say !

And the highlight of the movie is some of the songs which are so thought provoking -
Yuthathai niruthu and malordu malar engu...
And even the song poovukkenna poottu kaatrukkenna roottu has some amazing lyrics that i fall in love with everytime i listen to it ..

"soalaikku enna oru kavalai eppoadhum paravaigal azhuvadhillai
sooriyanil enrum iravu illai eppoadhum sorggaththukkuth thadaiyillai
kaanaththaanae kangal kanneer sindha illai
maegangal manvizhundhu kaayangal aanadhillai
vaazhaththaanae vaazhkkai veezhvadharku illai
pollaadha jaadhi madham iraivanum sollavillai
vellaththaanae veeram kolvadharku illai
kaiyoadu kaisaerththu vaanaththaiyae thottuvidu

Aravind samy takes your heart away when he brings out all his anger and partiotism
when talking to the Religious (Political ) leaders and his friends who gets into the riot madness ... He immediately reminds me of his another patriotic act from Roja
where he puts off the burning indian flag by jumping on it ..watte scene that was :-)


And yet apart from all these , you have some enjoyable ,fun scene with the couple's romance and with their children coming in -It's cute & adorable.

When it comes to Kandukondein Kandukondein - i love the character Meenakshi (played by Aishwarya) I see so much of myself in her ..She never lives in a real world , always dreaming..is blunt and honest , adores Bharathi and sings about her impossible wishes like "Inre varvendum Deepavali pandigai ,nalay verum kanavu -naan en nambanum -Naan nattathum roja inre pookanum"

Sounds so like moi ... I dreamt ,dreamt & dreamt .....and then just like her ,Reality hit me hard and made me realise that it is okay to dream but be prepared get hurt as much ...The story revolves around this family of 2 sisters (other actress being Tabu who is constantly reffered to as unlucky woman) and then Ajith , Mammooty & Abbas appear as well playing their part ..Some angry scenes of Mammooty are too gud ..Rajeev Menon is a class apart ..making a movie where every scene delivers class and makes ur eye want more ...Such is the beauty of the locations & photography ..And such lovely costumes ,bright colours and well stitched Pavadai ,thavani -Aish has looked her best in these costumes.Lyrics for most of the songs melt you heart ..

"Kanna moochi ena da ..Kanna -naan kannadi porul pola da" ,
all the gals would relate to it -as men only know to break ur heart :-(

Enge enathu kavidhai -kanavile ezhudhi madiththa kavidhai
Sad song expressing the disaapointment of a broken heart ...

I just enjoyed wtahcing these 2 movies and overall ..Loved the weekend ..And thanked the SUN TV network for being so nice this time else you know these people, they would play a romantic thriller or a superstar movie totally unrelated to Independance on August 15th !!! So i did not expect them to play a partiotic movie which talks about religious conflicts when we are going through simliar attacks right now!!

Kudos to SUN TV network , hope we get to watch more meaningful films through the IDIOT BOX in the future too :-))

Yo Yo...

Oh... i would call it my Yo Yo syndrome ..

Suddenly i feel happy , and then sad and then gloomy and then moody
and then what not ..Varied moods and feelings :-P
That is why i call this a Yo Yo syndrome as my moods are like the YO YO toy ..
going from one extreme to another..

Guess many people do go through this but for me it's worse these day ..
I just don't feel like doing anything ...i keep looking at the window in my office
and watch the trees ...then i realise i have some work to do ...forcing myself to
complete the tasks ..i do ...quickly finish it off and back to gazing at the windows

Wonder how everyone handles that phase in life ..when you don't feel like doing a thing .... dunno what i need to pep me up ....what ..what ..what ??
Trying to listen to a lot of my favourite songs n stuff but doesn't help :-(

I wanna break free and only Kelly clarkson comes to my mind now ...
Her song which was my obsession at one time ..BREAKAWAY

Na na na ..na !!!

Verse 1:]

Grew up in a small town
And when the rain would fall down
I'd just stare out my window
Dreamin' of what could be
And if I'd end up happy
I would pray

Trying hard to reach out
But when I tried to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me
Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I prayed I could breakaway

[chorus]
I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky
And I'll make a wish, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I love
I'll take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway

[Verse 2:]
Wanna feel the warm breeze
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean
Get on board a fast train
Travel on a jetplane, far away
And breakaway

[chorus]
I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky
And I'll make a wish, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
I won't forget all the ones that I love
I gotta take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway

[Bridge:]
Buildings with a hundred floors
Swinging round revolving doors
Maybe I don't know where they'll take me
But, gotta keep moving on, moving on
Fly away, breakaway

[chorus 2]
I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
Though it's not easy to tell you goodbye, gotta
Take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget the place I come from
I gotta take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway

Breakaway
Breakaway...

My connection with Animation.....

I love movies and especially animated movies ...
If i remember well the first animated movie that i saw on a movie hall was "Cars" .I literally fell in love with it ....The attitude F1 race car who thinks he is god and his realisation about true love & life happens when he sees his downfall ...Human characters could not have brought out that emotions so well that those animated characters brought on to the screen !!

It was awesome ..especially when he falls in love with the girlie car and takes a drive down the road with a view of the waterfall ..i still remember that scene so well being the romantico viji :-)

Then i watched "Happy Feet" and my heart ached for the Dancing Penguin when he failed to win over his gal because he could not sing like the traditional lot of penguins..

Then came "FINDING NEMO" which tops my favourite movie list..though this should have been the movie that introduced me to the animation world ..i got to watch it very late ..It was almost 2 years back when i visited my friend in mumbai ...we caught up with the movie ....I literally prayed that Nemo's dad should find NEMO ..He was just an adoring father and NEMO takes your breath away when he gets stuck in the fish tank pipe .....Animated movies to me are "Characters filled with emotions that translates the magic of imaginary things that can bring life to the screen" ....A real beauty !!

Recently i borrowed a DVD from a colleague who sent us mails saying he was inspired by an animated movie ...that was the terrific "Kungfu Panda" . I cant forget that day ..i was at an all time emotional low and decided am gonna get over it by watching this DVD.....My sister to accompany me ..could not have asked for more ..

It was an evening filled with laughter ..The PANDA makes u laugh till your stomach aches ..he was so cute that i wished i had one pet like him :-) Such a nice movie with inspirational message ....The difference lies in how you see yourself -Nothing's impossible !!!

I watched some scenes repeatedly... how he tries so hard to visit the grand kungfu ceremony, feels ashamed that he cant see his toes - his tummy is so big and how he learns the martial art being the very himself !!!

Finally , i wanted to see "THE LION KING " which so many people often mentioned in their animated movie list .I happily delegated the job on downloading the movie to my kiddo sister ...The dedicated kiddo sis also did that and we got to spend another exciting evening with "SAMBA" ....Samba looked so cute as a cub and his proud dad "Mufasa " -Another nice character in the movie ....I loved this movie too (This goes without saying by now)....i loved the Elton john musical in this movie and i kept humming " Hakuna Matata" all the time ...Music on this movie is mesmerising !!

I know this is just a few that i have watched till now..But that's kool as... Whoaaaaaaaaaaaaaa, i have more to catch up on my list of ANIMATED FUN:-)