GOD

I don't know if GOD exists or not . But just feel liking pouring out my opinions on GOD here.
I was raised as a god fearing person , parents always took me to temples for summer vacations.Have been to all the thiruvannamalai to mantralayam and tirupathis. Even till this date, i feel at peace when i visit our family god temple.. Bagavathy amman's temple @ madapalli kaavu . Every time i am there ...my soul searching begins ..it is one of the places that is so close to my heart .And when in Coimbatore , i always enjoyed doing my daily visits to Dhavanthiri temple, ayyappan temple and Sathyanarayana temple. It was like a routine to visit the temple. But once i took up Buddhism my view towards idol worship and GOD changed.I felt there was no supreme human power above us who is controlling everything in our lives. Tried applying logic to everything we did in Hinduism and when i did not find a logical reason , i mocked at it. Abhishegams reminded me only of the poor for whom this milk and honey would do wonders. People talking in temple put me off... all they were doing inside a temple premises was gossiping and discussing about others. Is that what god wants ? The more i read about buddhism , i understood ..we do not profusely say there is no GOD ..all buddhism says is do not leave everything to an external source ..work on yourself first . As even buddhism believes in the zhoten zenjin and buddhist gods . It's the positive protective forces working in the universe . As i keep writing here , am still an amature in this topic. NO one yet knows who GOD is ..if he exists etc . All we know is faith ..yup ..the word is faith..when we believe in something ... we work towards it and we will get it.. but sometimes..out timing is just not right ..even the most deserving thing does not come your way when your timing is  not right ...now that is what is called KARMA. Again i wonder..how something i did in the past should affect my present ...sounds ridiculous that someone is born rich because he did so much good in his previous lifetime but someone is poor because of all the bad deeds... But when you actually experience it..it all feels so right ...KARMA, GOD ..FAITH ...everything...

Finally i realise ,all these stuff are created ,written and passed on by someone called MAN.. so it is he who creates everything and gets the ball rolling .. until i find some answers to these innumerable questions ...i will believe in MYSELF !!!!

Karma?

Well...i wonder what kind of creation is human being ...
who created us ? and why do i get that feeling of helplessness all the
time i see someone in rags,someone begging or someone beaten up
Sometimes i feel the same way when i meet really aged people at tough jobs .
My heart aches when very elderly men come seeking for business...
Wonder how they handle tough jobs at this age ..and have to run around
in spite the rising mercury , meeting young people like me to get business for their companies ..sometimes i feel sorry to say no to them!!
then i wonder ..is this sympathy wrong ?? may be yes !!!
i need to see more of the enthusiasm in them that has not changed in spite the old age rather than sympathise with them ...

How nice it would be if everything in this world seemed so perfect ...
no beggars ...no one slogging for business etc...
but then ...may be there is a reason why everyone is in that kind
of stage in their lives ...

I had my lesson one fine day ..

We were on a drive and at one of the traffic signals ...i noticed a man begging ...!!
The usual sympathetic me pestered my husband to reach out and offer the beggar something ...As he was more concerned about getting ready to go with the green signal ...i reached out and quickly offered few rupee coins ....
the next few seconds..i regretted what i did ...!!!
i could not believe that guy who was legless and begging on roads
could not understand my compassion instead teased me ...he merrily sang
.. "Dhoom machale" and he had spoken something that i failed to hear as the car went away from him ....only when my husband reminded me that he was teasing me,singing & mentioning .."let's go out" .....i realised how foolish i was
to feel for people like these !!!
no wonder it is said " Wherever & whoever you are ...It's your Karma"
He must have surely been an eve teaser in his previous birth and has accumulated such bad karma ....that he is begging on roads today ....and all i saw was may be a little of his nature ...this was my lesson learnt this week :-)