Baby days to Boards

As i stood there to watch this baby of mine suddenly becoming a tall handsome young man -I went to see him off write his first centralised examination -The Big Board exam today .Shooing me away to not show PDA and warning me not to hug  -I stood there teary eyed to recollect the same me standing like this teary eyed 14 years ago! Just that gates and schools were different It was June 2011 and i was there to see him off for his first day at play school and capture the memory of his first day outing away from his family members

How time flies-I hope i capture these memories again in 2 years when you will have to write yet another important exam of your life -Chase what your heart wants my Darling baby Vihaan❤

Whom to Vote? Confused ? READ ON!

It is that time of the year when everyone is talking about elections.And when every party suddenly remembers the PEOPLE and make visits to their colonies and request them to elect them .A time to give a lot of promises!! I am surprised at people even listening to them for the angst we should be having for n number of events when every one went silent and watched us suffer . Be is when our farmers were not even seen by the PM or the THOOTHUKUDI shooting .And in our state , the ruling and opposition just take turns to loot people.How many lands have been grabbed by the families of the opposition and how many in ruling party watched silently what happened to our late CM when she was in the hospital .Did anyone have the spine to question why no one was allowed to meet her ? Are these the people who are going to protect us !!!! wowww!! Wake up TN , it is time for change .Makkal Needhi Maiam has selected their candidates wisely . A woman activist , EX IAS office , A doctor , A lawyer are their choices!! Have we ever seen this kind of educated people in all constituency in our Tamil Nadu politics yet? And i fail to understand this logic of voting for whom we think will win .Now , who decides who will win -The PAID Media ? which takes turn to campaign for whoever pays them well!! I saw a full page advertisement from one of the leaders in south chennai and many political parties advertising heavily -If only this money was spent in doing what the people needed the most Have we seen the garbage filled roads of south Chennai ? what did you do sir about that? The traffic, water woes and dirty play grounds -list is endless !!! Please don't ever think your VOTE is wasted . As currently the majority of the people feels i don't want to vote for either of the parties -neither the ruling nor the opposition -but they also don't want to waste their vote -Absolutely right !!! your vote will not go wasted for sure if you choose TORCH (MAKKAL NEEDHI MAIAM) as they are here to stay!!! they are here to change the way politics happen!!! Please do not think i am kamal fan and i am just supporting him for that mere reason !! I am a CITIZEN like you who want a good future for my children , a state where our basic necessities like access to good water , good road to travel will be fulfilled and a state where woman will feel more safe!! LET US CHOOSE WISELY LET US VOTE FOR TORCH LET US VOTE FOR MAKKAL NEEDI MAIAM

2017....

Let me say the truth - 2017 so far has been the worst year in my entire life!! But still i am very sure it is only 3 months and i have a good 9 more months to make it rock and not be in rock bottom Here i go to make a list of things that i a grateful for !! that My 1st very own laptop -yeah husband gifted me this laptop and i am very happy that i have my own laptop now! Finally got to see GOA!! yeah - visited GOA the dream destination for a beach lover Got to catch up with my sister for chit chats after ages! Visited Agra, Tajmahal -Finally,one wonder of the world i have seen now!! And i am sure the list will get bigger , till then will stay grateful for the little things that make me happy! Here is to a great 2017- Bring it on 2017! Challenge me more -I am waiting!

Fit in or be unique?

I have had this experience in most places i go , with many people i interact to the numerous discussions that we have on different number of wasup group these days -I e I don't fit in to the majority of the opinions. I somehow always feel the opposite of what is the trend . I have had many such arguments , discussions and some have even ended in a sour taste. Earlier , it used to bother me as to why i am not thinking like the majority as they say " majority wins" . But when you follow you heart and truly believe in something, it does not matter whether you win but it matters how well you played -is it nt? Then i came across many such like minded friends with whom i discuss this and that is when one of them commented - Viji, why fit in -when you were born to stand out? wow -what a different take that was from what i have been thinking! Really that remark has boosted my confidence and fighting spirit more ! Yes i may not think like the majority but i am happy i am unique and can proudly speak my mind and stick to my beliefs even if there are not too many followers for it!

Sila Nerangalil Sila Manithargal

Sometimes the behavior of certain sect of people are so complex that you stop trying to understand them! There are some who have affinity more to people who practice their religion and for some they prefer to keep friends from the same strata in society.Some are too inquisitive to see what happens in others lives more than themselves and some more influenced by others than their own. And there are some who follow and copy everything that you do but in the outside they pose as if they are not concerned of your choices And some judge without understanding the soul but seeing the face. And there are some who are not bothered about others a bit but more to themselves . And there are those who want to make this world a better place. Now which one are you?

The differences - Why it disturbs me ?

I walk across a shopping mall and i see the audis and mercedes zoom fast the roads , opposite lie there many homeless folks sleeping on the road . I wonder how they manage their life everyday living like this? No home to go - Imagine being homeless , no food -no proper clothes!! I take my son out for a treat and there comes 2 boys one much younger to him and one a little older to him , Without wearing proper foot wear, walking bare foot in this chennai heat -they are selling us stickers and coloring books and all we can buy i some of it to help them - I decided to invite them for the lunch treat with us and stopped the restaurant guys from shooing them away saying they have come with us . But again after that meal -they are back to the street in the same hot sun to sell the books left behind My maid walks in often with some marks of her domestic abuse , how much ever i help her -She has to depend on this man to live the rest of her life - i keep thinking to myself -how is it possible for her to live her life everyday with a man who makes her unhappy Again - This is the daily life and the circle continues -but it is bothering me every time i encounter this situation Is it me -am i too weak to turn a blind eye to all these differences that is happening in our society ? Or is it all of us who all ignore such incidents and forget about it the next day ? Why does these differences affect me so much - I dont know!!

I love you no less my son!

Dear Vidhaath -I did not spend all my time gazing at your peaceful baby face as i did for your brother, I did not click every move of yours and record every milestone of yours, I did not write a poem for you, I did not create an email id for you, I did not register a website for you, I did not blog about you still !! I did not take you for pram walks everyday, I did not maintain a food dairy , I did not rave a lot about your cuteness to my friends, I did not even take you on a proper holiday. But i did not love you any less baby!!! You are loved as much as i can love anyone!!! Love you Vidhaath

My first blog of this year!!

I can't belive that i have not blogged in this brand new year . 2014 has been a very challenging yet enjoyable year Starting with saying a bye to my work place -temporarily though to spending a lot of time with Vihaan in February to suddenly not being able to focus on him with the arrival of Vidhaath -My youngest son -March was tiring indeed. Just when i thought being back with Vihaan is going to make things alright - I had the toughest time in accepting his frustations of his unexplainagble feelings If only i could read his mind -As a mother , my heart broke to see him sad for a few days - What all they go through so much insecurities in sharing the love with another person . No wonder they termed it "Sibling Jealousy/Rivalry " It is not easy on a mother as inspite trying to focus all her energy on an older child -she still needs to take care of the baby who needs her most of the times -And sometimes i feel i am hardly around for the baby just to make the older one feel very secure Tough times indeed -Wishing i could clone myself and keep switching between both the boys And hoping the day will soon arrive when i can comfortably play with both of them together without any worries

Navratri 2013

Navratri comes with its own charm of golu,kutcheris,temple visits and what not!! One of those times where i dont miss visiting the temple I was delighted to see the Amman in various forms for all the 9 days and it becomes like a countdown for me to guess and wait to see what will be her form that day and trying to learn what forms those avatarams meant too And interesting part are the golu visits where everyone tries to portray their favorite stories through their golu I did learn a little about parts of ramanyana and wonder why no one chooses mahabaratam storied in golu displays Taking Vihaan to the Anantha padmanabasamy temple was like a ritual in itself and bonus was when one trip his friend Kimaya joined in And it was lovely to have some of my friends home for vathilai paaku custom Navratri makes me feel like a traditional complete woman in this modern world where you dont often feel that way Hope i enjoy the navratris to come and look forward to my very own Golu Navratri:-)

Someday!!

Someday - I will visit the USA ...Someday i will attend my School re union!! Someday -I will get back to Dancing ...Some day -I shall take my dad for a movie ...Someday -I shall do scuba diving Someday -I will throw a surprise party for my mother ..someday -i will do a trip with my sister ..someday -i will do a girls nite out ..someday - i will watch back to back movies ..Someday i will be at the beach in Sujay's arms to watch the sun rise ..Someday i will write a book for Vihaan to cherish his mother's history..Someday i will blog ..and here the blog's some day arrived and what about the rest of all the some daysssss!!! Wish i see all these somedaysssss!!!!

How can we even debate on this Juveline topic?

My angst increases as i keep reading every rape incident accused family raising a query that the so & so accused was a minor etc and hate to see the debates going on forums , papers and media on whether it is okay to reduce punishment for an accused on a rape incident citing he is a minor !!! Ridiculous i say -just think if your daughter or wife was the victim -would you still accept this verdict? And what is worse that the minor had the B**** to rape and why not get punished - now why is the age becoming a factor to support them .If this is the case then every rape accused has a chance to go scott free as given how money can buy everything in this day -they can easily buy a age proof id to show they are a minor! Minor or Major -Rape is the most cruel & heinous crime a man can commit and this deserves a capital punishment that should teach him a lesson of his life time for comitting the worst act of his life !!! My heart goes out to Nirbhaya's parents who wear in tears to hear the verdict and will really pray that they fight until they get justice for Nirbhaya!

Being a woman!!!

Finally managed to write my blog post from my phone. whoa!! i wanted to write just about being a woman. Though the 21st century woman has more freedom than her ancestors,still some things have not changed for woman-not that am complaining about it-just concerned! some instances that remind me of how woman are still not on equal path would be typically a marriage or work scenario. i find it funny that still people have that upperhand feeling ifthey are from boy's side.And if girl's side makes their presence felt ,they would be termed as dominating family. i still remember some folks trying to sound suprised that there was no dowry or diamond demand for my wedding.And we are acting surprised and shocked for such normal situations -then is this about being equal? thank god for some sensible men in families that woman voices are heard but there are still woman who slog and clean toilets to earn their daily bread as husbands are busy drinking away to glory! Being a woman ia still not a blessing if you are born into a narrow minded or poor families where the family look at how much they have to spend on you and end of the day you wont earn back for them. But the good news is things are definitely changing but bad news is the pace and place at which it changes. On the contrary ,there are also woman who take the advancement and support system created to safeguard them for granted like the n number of false sexual harrasment /dowry harrasment accusations.Having gone through one such false allegation as a family myself - Where are the real womanly qualities of compassion ,care and tolerance ?? Did they just disappear in name of equality . I guess we need to draw a line between being equal and having the upper hand . If all women were to think of being the real Bharathi's Pudumai Pen begins in realizing your worth and creating equality around you for everyone including men and not in wearing miniskirts or sporting a bob cut and smoking away to show you have the freedom! Hope the Woman in you flourish for the better !! Happy Woman's Day:-)

New Year Tradition Continues!!!!

1st January 2008 Sujay & Viji dines at the courtyard Mariott's Paprika as Engaged Couples. The dinner is special ,she wears a sleeveless Black polo neck top and her favorite boot cut jean . Her eyes sparkles as she is madly in love with her fiancee!! 1st January 2009 Sujay & Viji are married and it's no surprise Viji is 2 months pregnant -So the new year is spent quietly at home sleeping and whispering each other a happy new year. 1st January 2010 It is a special new year indeed as there is a new entrant to the Sujay clan- Our little rockstar Vihaan Sujay who is just 6 months old is already dining at the PAPRIKA of Court yard Mariott . His mom dedicates her favourite song from MLTR to him - Nor prises for this guess !!! It is the SLEEPING CHILD :-) 1st January 2011 The new year is spent a little different as change is the only constant thing -Sujay & Viji try a new place on the OMR ( sigh -not so great!!) 1st January 2012 Your siblings are there from your diaper days to you start changing diapers for their grand kids . The sibling bond starts with this beautiful year - Akshay & Keerthi joins in the new year tradition 1st Janauary 2013 The new year tradition continues along with our very own brother & sister . And this time it was too good with Vihaan going crazy on the bouncing castle and the adults going gaga over the Flashmob that was very well choregraphed and cutely presented by the entire Kitchen team of Paprika - Hats off to them !! And here i hope & wish the New Year tradition continues even when our family grows and we become old !!

Those little surprises

When you are courting or dating , there are lot of surprises that come about in your relationships. Cute little notes , cards ,flowers and so on . Or a surprise visit by your fiancee by your office reception etc . Being a die hard romantic,i only dreamt of experiencing these cute little things in real life . But life is not a movie where your partner is going to exactly replicate the hero kind of acts to woo you !! So have always kept my expectations low in terms of surprises and gifts. But when someone cares for you and love you a lot, they go out of the way to do the things that they have never done before!!! And that makes it extra special.This yellow roses have been extremely special to me as amidst a busy hectic day, i came to my room to be stumped seeing those cheerful and my favourite yellow roses on the office desk. And add to that a little more surprise as it said : To vijayameenakshi -From Guess who? Who else can it be than the Hubby who decided to floor me with an act which is not his kinds!! i was so floored and Happyyyyyyy:-)) Hoping 2013 is more of such moments !!

Some scribbles!!!

I cant believe it has been few months i wrote my last blog...wowwww....sigh! That means - i have not connected to myself for these few months. What kept me so busy was usual work chores, the amazing Vihaan's tantrums,school routines and of course some friends and acquaintances who fill your life with surprises & shock Well well well, now back to the blog - i wanted to scribble my thoughts and here i am back - off late , many things have been bothering me .The fact that i realized even your best friend cannot help you when you feel alone and unhappy . There are certain things that only you can help yourself .And that it is better to find happiness from within than to keep seeking it outside of you even when it is very normal that your happiness is completely dependent on near & dear ones. But ultimately, it is you -your own self who makes the decision to feel happy ,keep peace with one self irrespective of what others in your life are doing. This is a harsh reality that i experienced in my recent past life. Anyways, am glad to have understood this better this time and hence i am sure i am not going to let myself get hurt badly ever again. The big question for me always on my mind was how can we think of helping another when you are not in peace with yourself. So here i am working on it -As definitely i want to be there to realize my dream of doing something to the underprivileged but for that i need to be at peace understanding my own life and keeping myself calmer & happier Here is to a relaxed and happy year end .Looking forward to a great 2013 2012 has been unforgettable in many ways -good & bad things have happened but am sure the bad taught me some good lessons So, gearing up for a beautiful brand new yearrr

I LOVE MY INDIA

Am sooooooooo glad that i am gonna celebrate my 100th blog on Independence day and here i am -writing all about my lovable country . INDIA - The vey fact that i was born in this country makes me love it to bits and reading the indian history at school makes you more proud . When i was a teenager i did get angry everytime i read about all the atrocities in the pre independence era. How much our ancestors must have gone through for me to sit and write here and for you to read it out there!!! Imagine - would this have been possible 66 years back? My most memorable patriotic moments as far as i can remember is when i hear or sing the National Anthem .Every time i sing it ,i get goose bumps and sometimes i end up crying too!!! There are times in school when even friends have made fun of me when i keep standing for the Jana Gana Mana song rehearsals during my band days . They used to ask me -we are gonna practise 50 times -are you gonna stand up every time??? That was my passion and respect for the anthem during school days . However i regret that i also succumbed to the pressure as i became an adult and regrette now standing up when it was played in k3g Movie as the entire theatre crowd only kept sitting down and the folks i watched it with also kept saying it is not necessary as it is only part of the movie What a shame ? i am sure that was the last time -i thought of what others thought and did what they wanted than what i wanted to do!! The next patriotic experience i remember was after the movie roja -my neighbours were commenting how stupid od Arvind sawmy that he almost sacrificed his life to save the flag . I was a teenager then but still got shocked when the young lady told me she would have poured water and stamped out the fire and i angrily replied " You are saying this because you are an anglo indian -but we indians would do anything to save the nation's pride !!!" Wow- how vividly i remember all this!!! India - I love everything about you !!! so many beautiful states, languages , different cultures and that is what makes you so diverse. But one thing is everyone uses this diversity to create divide between people and my only wish is that everyone really try to live the Unity in Diversity that we claim to be proud of and We Indians are sure to race ahead of other super powersss! Wishing for a violence free, Poverty free , Corruption free and more tolerant Indians Jai Hind !!

5 years of Blogging !!!

Exactly 5 years back, same day i started to blog! Infact , it's such a co-incidence that i was browsing through my old posts and saw the 1st blog was written on 14th August 2007. For 5 years , i have n't still touched a 100 posts. But i am very glad that somehow i managed to keep my passion for writing alive through this blogspot. A big thanks to Nita ma'm for encouraging me to think of writing where ever possible and for introducing me to blogs . It was one dramatic day where we had to record her voice over in a studio at alwarpet and i had to accompany her being in marketing and it was my responsibility to get that video out! She picked me up and as we were reaching the studio -the worst thing that can happen on a important day happened -my footwear sandals gave away and with embarrassment i walked into the studio without slippers and focused on the recording .After it was done, i quietly told Nita ma'm - i dont have slippers to wear back to office and if she can help go fetch slippers from my home in adyar and drop me back to work .In this long drive from and to alwarpet and adyar - our conversations on Journalism and how i always wanted to be one etc came up .She being the awesome writer that she is , she spoke to me at length and enlightened me with the various opportunities that exists to live my passion and start writing!!! And there i began the journey . I started writing with MSN and i cant explain how i felt when they published my first article!!! Awesomeness - i tell you !!! From there on, i decided why wait for MSN to publish my free thoughts and that is how My World was bornnnnnnnnn...

There is something about "Amma Veedu"

I cant believe that its been 2 month since i actually wrote a blog . I must have at least tried logging in twice to write something and i don't know how it never happened Was i that busy with my work ? Grrrr...Am glad now i got this short break to relax a bit and rejuvenate my blog I was really thinking how come am at so much in peace with myself when i reach my mom's place. Its like the feeling of coming back to my single days or rather being at a place when i am completely ME! Though many would not agree that marriage changes you a lot, it does! At least in turning yourself into something that you were never before -Yup-marriage does that .Its not something bad but it's a biggg change .I guess that is why every girl longs to go her Mother's place -To just be herself , Put her feet up and feel like the free young girl she was sometime ago! To get pampered and feel totally irresponsible as Amma is there to do everythingggg... Even this room , computer and this blog - i could never find time to write most of my blogs from my home ... as far as i can remember i blog mostly when i come to amma's. I feel at peace within me and i just start writing. I dont have to stop to think about the husband or the guest or the door bell or the so many interventions that happens in a married woman's life . Being at amma's place and writing for me is - like doing something that i love from a place that is so MEEEEEEE... Hope i get to write more & more as i keep coming here :-)

My mobile's lost & found experience

Luckily , so far i have not lost a mobile phone!! But i almost had the experience of loosing my phone few days back . We were watching the hilarious OK OK movie in Satyam and i realized my mobile had just fallen down . We tried calling and with the lights flashing under the chair , found it and felt great about realizing it slipped out of my jean so quickly . But i guess my mobile's fate for that day was to get lost that night!!! As it was a night show , we were already yawning while leaving . Only after the car reached my home , i asked my husband about if he had my mobile and yeahhhhhhh-as expected he did not have it as i remembered giving him the phone after i found it under my chair the first time i lost it . The time was 2.00AM -imagine our plight... even thinking of going back all the way to sathyam was so tiring !!! But he did that as i was sitting in my room imagining that now my phone has gone missing - How am i gonna build up the contact list again ?? What about all the personal photos & messages ...oh god-some stranger is going to read them ... My mind went on ..only relief was to think for a day - i can be free as i will be non contactable !!! But the cons were more than the pros !! I slept off loading my brains with these thoughts only to wake up next morning pleasantly surprised to have my phone next to me as alwayssssssssssss!!! Hubby dear managed to get hold off the phone -exactly the same way as we did the first time !! it was under the same seat at E row in Stahyam!! Lucky ME ! And my luckyyy Phoneeeeeeeeeeee :-)

Dreams Come True!

Believe me - Dreams come true !!!! And this was a dream for me.. i wondered if i will ever get to do it some day . And i did it at a time when i least expected it !! After a baby , enrolling myself for a management program which demanded a lot of time and energy when i was left with none after running behind a fast growing toddler. Now to think of this one whole year of studying time , i feel like i made up for whatever i missed early in life.

But this craving for studying from a great institute happened because of a heart breaking interview. I remember attending to an interview at KPMG and the interviewer told me i was perfect for the profile except for the educational background. She was not okay that i did a business degree through correspondence. Though i did not bother too much about the comments ,her opinion somehow deterred my confidence a little bit.

From then i had a wish rather a dream to do a study program from a great institute.I thought dreams will only be dreams, but believe me -Hold on to your dreams and you will someday see them come TRUE !!!!

Here i am at the Graduation ceremony receiving my POST GRADUATION certificate from XLRI institute :-)