How my heart breaks...

I dunno why i am made this way ..Bloody Emotional !
Sometimes i wonder how so many out there are able to cope up with things that happen to them which i can't even bear seeing or listening to it ....
Am sure they are not as sentimental as how i am .....

My dear friend once told me " Don't wear your heart on your sleeve "No wonder ..people can just hurt me so easily ..blame it on me :-(
How does this happen ? why ..Does it mean that i am so weak or does it mean that i value every relationship so strongly that when it show it's demonic face,i am unable to bare the reality ...Is it so bad to think with your heart , speak your heart and do from your heart ...?? May be it is bad for the heart ..as i let it break every time i speak from my heart .How i wish i could use the brain instead and save my heart .

No wonder ...every poet focused so much on this stupid heart as you feel the pain when it aches :-(

How many heart aches everyday ? every second? i don't know .....

But i know when my heart aches ,mostly when my dear ones HURT ME ...
sometimes ....when i see the orphaned animals especially the dogs on the road :-(
sometimes ...when on my way home -walking upstairs to my house and i see that old woman ( i think she is my watchman's mother )sleeping on the ground floor entrance ..(Imagine -That space is not even the size of my bathroom !) sometimes when i meet those hungry little children coming up to to me begging and all i would be able to afford was a one time dinner or a pastry ....every time when i watch the news of so many girls being raped ..sometimes when i see the breaking news on bomb blasts and the ever increasing number on lives lost ....and most of the times my heart aches when i think of how i am unable to share my happiness with my appa !

Chennaiyil oru Mazhai Kaalam !!

Whooaaa....i am seeing this downpour after ages !!
Guess it was in 2005 that we had something close to this ..non stop showers ,so much water all over the roads .....all this can be irritating but what's nice about mazhai .....so many i say ..!!

It's a pleasure to feel the rain drops on ur palm :-) and then ..lower the window glasses and take a drive in the beach ...looking up straight at the sky ..that rain drops on your face ...wow...watte an experience ...it's like that chinna chinna santhosham :-) ...looking out of the car window and feeling the showers on ur head ...i feel like singing "Rain drops keep falling on my head...la la la ...."

Suddenly ,a list of snacky comes to mind ...i recollect how i demand amma to make
hot pakoras or bajjis and get me also a hot cup of tea ...Sitting in the balcony ...i would just enjoy the scenery and the weather !!
Missing it :-((

And the most important part....this die hard romantic , filmy viji would also start singing nice mazhai songs ...he he he !!

Let me start a collection of Mazhai songs now...

1.Mazhai varuthu ...kudai kondu vaaa...
2.Vaan megam ...Poo poo vaai thoovum
3.Oh ho ..megam vanda tho ...
4.Mudhal Mazhai
5.Chinna Chinna ,thooral enna
6.Barso Re megha megha
7.Bheegi Bheegi raath o mein, meeti meeti bathon mein
8.Bheegi Bheegi raton mein..phir thum aao..
9.Sun sun sun barsaat ki
10.Tipu Tipu barsaa paani
11.Aankhon hi aankhon se jal ne do sara...

And my all time favouriteeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee from "Dil to pagal hai "

Koi ladki hain , jab ho hasti hainnnnnnn ..BAARISH HOTI HAIN ..Chunar chunar chun chun ..This song is picturised so well .The meaning of the song completely revolves around the RAIN ..You feel so nice watching it and as u keep watching you feel like dancing in the rain ...Lots of kids dancing to shaimak davar's steps and the ever graceful madhuri dixit & karishma kapoor add beauty to it .....

Now...my time has come to dance in the rain :-)

And your turn to watch the song :-P




Happy showers are here again ...!!!

My Golu Visits :-))

Golu ....The word itself reminds me of Sundal, Songs ,dolls & temple visits..
Being the rebellious girlie , GOLU is one of the few traditional customary practice that i enjoy or would like to follow as GOLU makes me HAPPY !!!

My Phone received a lot of SMS invitations for GOLU visits while i managed to do only 2 visits .Both the visits made so glad and it was a fun filled experience...
The First one being a visit to a dear colleague and second one to my best buddy ...

Let me talk about the first one ...

Firstly , i became this little girl who was so excited as i was visiting the Finance Minister's House for GOLU :-P ....We were a bunch of young gals (let's forget that am a woman now ..he he he ) who were from different religions .It almost looked like there was unity in diversity ..There was even a girl from OMAN and i am sure this was as alien to her as how their customs are to us .Then there were a few tamil ,then some malayalee gals ( i bet ,you cannot miss a malayalee in any common gathering, they are everywhere).It was so wonderful to be back to return to a gang of girls visiting someone for GOLU ...This has happened only when i was kiddo .I was all excited to see the nice arrangement , the natural plants amidst which some dolls of farmers farming were also there .Then of course,Lord Rama ,Seetha ,Krishna & Radhe who make their presence in almost all GOLU's .I loved it when a gracefully aged aunty started explaining to me on the Rama & Seetha's trip with Guhan's help as i had almost forgotten this by now ..All i remember in Ramayana was how Seetha asked for the Deer , How Rama doubted her ...Only this !!

I enjoyed the story telling & listening part , then came my turn of enthusiastic singing ..i also got some compliments (not bad ..am a bearable singer ) ..I rendered my favourite bhajan on Krishna "Yashodai Nandagopaalane" ...This song has become a part of me as i have taken so much liking towards Lord Krishna. Not sure if it is because he is so naughty or notorious but i wonder how i even like the flirtatious traits in him :-P

Then we had this pretty young malayalee girl render a song on "Guruvayoorappan"
Did u notice that all young girls seem to like Lord Krishna ??? he he he :-)
After the songs the perfect host, Srinidhi gave us the GOLU gifts and flowers.
Again this little kiddo popped up from inside me and as soon as i left the house , i opened my gift bag eagerly ..i found some pretty chain , earring , the traditional kum kum ,chandan ,mirror & comb ..nice fancy bindis, lip stick and a dazzling finger ring... I was even caught when one of my friends walked by asking what i was up to checking out some stuff like a girl looking at a candy !!! i proudly exclaimed
"This is my GOLU GIFT " .

Wow , watte experience ...!!

The next day , i managed to visit my Friend Shefali for GOLU and there again i was in awe with the dolls esp the Marapachi Bommais .She had dressed them so cutely with traditional pattu dhoti,angavasthram for the boy & pattu paavadai -sattai for the girl.Then i found two more of them at the corners. She had a nice Dakshinamoorthy idol at the centre . When i got too enthu about some of the dolls , the possessive her told me "They are Gods ,dont touch them" ..Again i knew the kid in me had peeped out .After admiring the dashaavatharam idols, i spotted the idols representing Rama,Seetha -Guhan ,Vadai -Paati -Crow & Fox story ..it was taking me to the childhood when i was told all these stories by elders.
Here again i learnt a part of the Ramayana where Hanuman goes to bring a Shiva Lingam to worship and how seetha built one out of MUD as they were getting late to leave the place. I was also told these 2 lingams exists as on date in Rameshwaram ..This destination captured in my memory instantly to the "Wish list -Places i need to see ". After a long catch up on our own gosspis & girlie stories , I promptly received the Vethlai ,Paakku and left home.

I realised i enjoyed these two GOLU visits ...They left me in total awe and excitement.They have inspired me to do my own GOLU for next Navratri . I hope i would manage that well and learn by then some more good stories from Lord Rama & Krishna's life . Let me get geared to play the perfect host for NAVRATRI GOLU -2009 !!!

THE IDIOT BOX !

No wonder , they named it IDIOT BOX ...i really feel like yelling at it sometimes calling that name ..ha ha ha !!
I never knew even some close relationships get affected because of this IDIOT !!!
Yo yo , am talking about none other than the so called "T.V"

This IDIOT BOX can become a problem between Husband and Wife,Mother and Daugther,
Anyone and Everyone. Wonder how ??? here are some life examples..

The typical me gets so annoyed with my husband when he is so much more interested in the idiot box than ME !!!! It happens ..can u believe? The third person in our lives is that IDIOT BOX who creates so many issues .Before i know it , tables turn and i cant' believe sometimes even he feels the same way.One day ,I was so surprised
with myself that i was happily watching TV when he was sharing something very important with me ..i was not listening..Oh No !!! This is what actually happens:-(

Another typical home scenario is when am with amma around ......She is so eager to see me in her house now that i am married and she does not get to see enough of me
Those rare moments , what i happily do i glue to the Idiot box and not listen to wat she says...Instead of spending those precious moments with her i become this one big potato couch .Little did i realise it can hurt her as much as how it hurts when someone avoids you !!

This IDIOT BOX keeps you so glued to him that you loose focus on your closed ones ...
We are happily watching TV and not listening enough to the conversations around us or not noticing how much our closed ones are longing to have us listen to them ..

It's time we realised that humans are more important than this stupid IDIOT BOX :-P